Who asked you to? I never asked you to do anything for me! I never wanted you to do anything for me. I never expected you to be like me. Yes, I wanted you to stop being so excessive sometimes and just do what we were meant to do without a show, but I never wanted or expected you to change completely. I stuck with you after the war because we were friends and partners, not because I expected anything from you. I chose you back then and remained. But, you've never trusted me, that is the problem. Yours, not mine.
I did not choose them. I chose myself. Maybe one day you will see that.
There is nothing I can do for you now. It's something only you can put to rest if you want to. Let me go or learn to trust me.
[ In the morning, when he sees this whole embarrassing conversation, he's going to delete it. But he's going to save this one to remind himself of why he's never going to talk about his fucking feelings again. ]
im not. im doing what u want. jesus. srry i havent humulitated myself enough yet for u but i have for me. trust u or dont. i got the message. truce. ok.
[ He doesn't respond. This was a disaster and he feels worse than he did going into it.
Two hours later, and about half a bottle of vodka, another message comes. He doesn't expect a response, he's just filling his end of the previous bargain. Locus will know what to do with the information. He always does. ]
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I did not choose them. I chose myself. Maybe one day you will see that.
There is nothing I can do for you now. It's something only you can put to rest if you want to. Let me go or learn to trust me.
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yeah. ok locus. srry i bothred u tonite.
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Keep shutting me out, Felix.
Every time I offer something you flee. I cannot fix anything on my own. You have to help.
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[ He's SO GLAD Felix finally telling him shit is humiliating. Really. ]
Goodnight.
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Two hours later, and about half a bottle of vodka, another message comes. He doesn't expect a response, he's just filling his end of the previous bargain. Locus will know what to do with the information. He always does. ]
its an ai that brought us here.
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What? How do you know?
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guy told me. tonight. mean last night.
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You're sure it's true?
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he thinks it is. guy who told him's from his world. is a friend. its in the porter that brought us here.
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Noted. Thank you for telling me.
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youre welcome.
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Get some sleep.
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[ He's probably going to pass out soon though! ]
goodnight.
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Goodnight.